to her parents。 They had been understanding and solicitous during her
grief It occurred to her that they would want to know when she was
happy。
For she was happy。 Knowing that Mitch would be with her in Vermont； she
could face just about anything else that arose。 His giving her the key
was a significant gesture。 Now she had a steady tie to the place。
Since returning this last time； she had changed。 For one thing； she had
finally been able to pack up Jeff's things。 For another； she was smiling
more； laughing more； eating more。 For a third； she was going out more
with old friends。
Strange。 For so much of the last year her apartment had been her private
retreat； her sanctuary when she couldn't face the world。 Lately； though；
it was nearly as lonely as it had been in the dreadful days following
the crash。
She missed Mitch。 The longing grew with each day that passed； until her
only refuge was in work and the pany of others。 Even then； he was
never far from her mind。
Now； with mud streaks covering the bottom half of her once…bright yellow
car； she turned onto the familiar private road。 Twice her tires began to
spin in the muck； twice she was able to back down and charge forward
around the offending mud hole。
It was early Wednesday afternoon。 Mitch wasn't due up until late Friday。
Everything seemed larger； emptier； and more silent without him； but she
wasn't lonely。 His mark was in every room of the house； surrounding her
in a promising cloak。
In his absence； she applied herself to menial tasks like dusting；
mopping； scrubbing sinks and the top of the stove。 Oh； she had brought
several translations to do； but she didn't touch either。 She wasn't in
the mood to concentrate。
During those two days； she did more baking than she had in the past two
years。 She baked bread。 She baked muffins。 She baked cookies。 Something
about the rural life was conducive to it。
Same with hiking。 Despite the mud； she did it daily。 Without a motor
humming； she could better hear sounds of the world emerging from winter。
The first of the geese honked as they flew in formation through a pale
blue sky。 The tallest of the tree branches stretched and flexed in the
gusting wind。 Squirrels scurried。 Woodpeckers pecked。 The ground
squished。
The snow was gone； and the woodland hadn't leafed out。 But naked boughs
stood straighter； heraking their resurgence。 Even the leggy lilacs by
the cabin's front door stood proudly in promise of fragrant blossoms。
Friday night came and went with no sign of Mitch。
Anne was devastated。 She had cooked a chicken dinner and opened a bottle
of wine。 The house was spotless and polished。 She had showered and
dressed in a pair of soft wool slacks and a paisley print blouse； had
brushed her hair to a high luster and draped it over her shoulders。
Though the soft pink glow on her cheeks needed no help； she had
carefully applied a sheen of lavender to her eyelids and a coat of
mascara to her lashes。 On the third finger of her right hand was the
exquisite enameled ring he had given her。
Well after midnight； she wrapped the food and cleaned up the kitchen。 At
two in the morning； she went to bed； but she barely slept。 One ear
listened； always listened for the sound of a car。 It never came。
Saturday morning； she was heavy…eyed and disturbed。 She went through all
the possible explanations for his failure to appear。 He might have been
hung up with business and unable to reach her。 He might have forgotten
that she would be waiting。 He might have decided not to e at all。 Now
that she had a key； she didn't need him to let her in。
The minutes crept by； one after another； after another。 By late
afternoon； when there was still no sign of the Honda； Anne was convinced
that she had simply blown the relationship into something it wasn't。
Then came the blare of a horn。 She ran from the window seat in the
kitchen to the front door。 But it wasn't his horn…she had known that
instantly。 While everything about Mitch oozed of charm； this sound
carried the rough edge of a local pickup truck。
〃Mrs。 Boulton？〃 barked a gruff voice。 The stocky form of a farmer； clad
in heavy wool jacket； baggy overalls； and aged work boots； stepped from
the cab of the truck and strode toward her。
〃Yes？〃 She didn't recognize the man。
〃Gut a message for ya。 From a fella named Cooper。 Phoned the police
station。 Sorry for the delay。〃 He handed the crumpled paper into Anne's
outstretched hand； touched a callused hand to his cap's bill； climbed
back in his truck； and was gone。
Nervously she unfolded the paper。 The scrawl was nearly illegible。
〃Unavoidable delay。 Mitch arriving Sunday night。 Miles Cooper。〃
With a tired sigh she cast a glance down the empty road。 Another whole
day to wait。 Unavoidable delay。 She wondered what that meant but it
didn't keep her awake that night。 Exhausted from the night before； she
slept deeply。
Sunday brought rain； and a dark； gloomy day。 Anne went out for a walk
anyway； did a crossword puzzle； sat at the window for what seemed hours。
By midafternoon； she was champing at the bit。 With neither cleaning nor
baking left to do； she did some translating。 When she finally heard a
distant car； the dim light of day had long since yielded to night。 But
the growing purr was familiar。 Without doubt； it was the Honda。
Excited； she opened the front door。 It seemed an eternity before he
finally climbed from the car； wrested his bags from the trunk； and
bolted through the rain toward the house。 When he brushed past her
without a direct glance； she knew something was wrong。
She closed the door on the rawness of the night； and turned to see him
drop the bags； throw off his overcoat； and head for the fire； all
without a word。 Unsure； she sank down on the sofa and waited。
The man reached out to her both physically and emotionally。 He wore a
beige sweater and brown corduroy slacks； and looked as strong and fit as
ever。 But it was the fatigue； suggested by his bent head and the limp
hand in his pocket； that made the greatest impression on her。 She ached
to help； but she feared rebuff。 So she remained silent。
For a time； frowning at the fire； Mitch seemed oblivious to her
presence。 Needing to make some small gesture； she went quietly to the
kitchen and returned with a mug of strong black coffee。
〃Have something hot； Mitch。 It was a long drive。〃
He looked at her so suddenly that she knew his mind had been miles away。
Without a word of either greeting or explanation； he accepted the cup
and returned to his brooding。 Again Anne waited； fearing what was wrong；
but needing to be there。
Finally； he put his head back； drew in a great breath； straightened； and
turned。 His eyes were tired； his face more drawn than she remembered it。
He drank the last of his coffee and set the mug on the mantel。 His smile
was wan； but it was a smile。 〃You're looking well。〃
She rested her chin on her knees； which were drawn up and held by her
arms。 〃I have been； thanks to you。 The antibiotic did the trick。〃
〃No more trouble？〃 When she shook her head； he said； 〃That's good；〃 and
looked back at the fire。
〃What's wrong； Mitch？〃
He shot her a dry look。 〃Don't ask。 I wouldn't know where to begin。〃
〃Was it a bad drive up？〃
〃The usual。〃
A silence followed。
〃I received the message；〃 she tried。 〃Thanks for sending it。〃
〃I didn't want you waiting。〃
Or worrying； she added silently； bitterly。 His aloofness scared her。 It
suggested he hadn't wanted to e at all。 Perhaps he even regretted
having given her the key。
〃Would you like me to leave； Mitch？〃
He looked at her like she was deft。 〃Of course not。 Why do you suggest
that？〃
〃Because you're two days late； then you walk in here like a zombie and
stare at the fire。 It occurs to me that you might just want your house
to yourself〃
〃If I had wanted that； I'd never have given you a key to the place。〃
〃Why did you？ I keep asking myself that； but I can't e up with a good
answer。〃
〃I wanted you to have access to the place whenever you wanted。〃
Gewhy？〃
〃That's a crazy question。〃
〃And this is a crazy situation。〃
He went to the front window and stared out at the darkness。 〃I never
promised you more。〃
Well； he was right。 A heavy weight settled in Anne's stomach。 Head
bowed； she rose from the sofa； reached for the empty mug； and headed for
the kitchen。 At the door； she stopped； but she didn't turn。 〃Have you
had any supper？〃
〃No。〃
〃I'll make something。〃
〃That's not necessary。〃
〃I'll do it。〃
Five minutes later； she sat across from him and watched him down the
club sandwich that she had made with the chicken that had gone uneaten
on Friday night。 Conversation was sparse and cryptic； pounding her
frustration。 〃Thank you；〃 he said when only crumbs remained。 〃That hit
the spot。〃
〃I'm glad I've finally done something right；〃 she murmured； standing to
clear the dishes。
He caught her hand。 〃What's that supposed to mean？〃
〃I think you know。〃 She freed her hand and she continued to the sink。
Suddenly he was directly behind her。 〃You've been vague about something
for the last hour。 What is it？〃
Fiercely； she scrubbed at the dish。
〃You're angry because I showed up late？〃
〃No。〃
〃What else could it be？ I sent word。 I even did it through Miles so you
wouldn't worry that I knew your last name。〃
〃That's not bothering me。〃
He turned her around。 〃Look at me； Anne。〃
Her hands dripped of soap。 She held them out to the sides。
〃I want you to tell me what's wrong；〃 he insisted； and she was suddenly
angry。
〃Why？ I don't owe you an explanation for my behavior； any more than you
owe me one for yours！〃
His eyes held hers for long minutes。 〃Ah。 That's it。 You want an
explanation for my lateness； like this is some kind of a business
meeting。〃
〃I don't want a thing！〃 she cried； whipping out of his grasp to dry her
hands on the towel。 She thrust a damp rag into his hand。 〃Here。 You
finish cleaning。 I'm going to bed。〃
She held off tears until she was safely up in her attic room and sure of
not being followed。 Then they came with a vengeance。 She had loved Jeff
and lost him； through powers that were beyond her。 Now it was happ