1 twilight暮色- 第68部分

Yes；　instant　regret。　I　pursed　my　lips；　hesitating。　〃I　don't　want　to　tell　
you。〃　

〃You　promised；〃　he　objected。　

〃I　know。〃　

〃What's　the　problem？〃　

I　knew　he　thought　it　was　mere　embarrassment　holding　me　back。　〃I　think　it　
will　make　you　mad　—　or　sad。〃　

His　brows　pulled　together　over　his　eyes　as　he　thought　that　through。　〃I　
still　want　to　know。　Please？〃　

I　sighed。　He　waited。　

〃Well…　I　assumed　it　was　some　kind　of…　occasion。　But　I　didn't　think　it　
would　be　some　trite　human　thing…　prom！〃　I　scoffed。　

〃Human？〃　he　asked　flatly。　He'd　picked　up　on　the　key　word。　

I　looked　down　at　my　dress；　fidgeting　with　a　stray　piece　of　chiffon。　He　
waited　in　silence。　

〃Okay；〃　I　confessed　in　a　rush。　〃So　I　was　hoping　that　you　might　have　
changed　your　mind…　that　you　were　going　to　change　me；　after　all。〃　

A　dozen　emotions　played　across　his　face。　Some　I　recognized：　anger…　pain…　
and　then　he　seemed　to　collect　himself　and　his　expression　became　amused。　

〃You　thought　that　would　be　a　black　tie　occasion；　did　you？〃　he　teased；　
touching　the　lapel　of　his　tuxedo　jacket。　

I　scowled　to　hide　my　embarrassment。　〃I　don't　know　how　these　things　work。　
To　me；　at　least；　it　seems　more　rational　than　prom　does。〃　He　was　still　
grinning。　〃It's　not　funny；〃　I　said。　

〃No；　you're　right；　it's　not；〃　he　agreed；　his　smile　fading。　〃I'd　rather　
treat　it　like　a　joke；　though；　than　believe　you're　serious。〃　

〃But　I　am　serious。〃　

He　sighed　deeply。　〃I　know。　And　you're　really　that　willing？〃　

The　pain　was　back　in　his　eyes。　I　bit　my　lip　and　nodded。　

〃So　ready　for　this　to　be　the　end；〃　he　murmured；　almost　to　himself；　〃for　
this　to　be　the　twilight　of　your　life；　though　your　life　has　barely　
started。　You're　ready　to　give　up　everything。〃　

〃It's　not　the　end；　it's　the　beginning；〃　I　disagreed　under　my　breath。　

〃I'm　not　worth　it；〃　he　said　sadly。　

〃Do　you　remember　when　you　told　me　that　I　didn't　see　myself　very　clearly？〃　
I　asked；　raising　my　eyebrows。　〃You　obviously　have　the　same　blindness。〃　

〃I　know　what　I　am。〃　

I　sighed。　

But　his　mercurial　mood　shifted　on　me。　He　pursed　his　lips；　and　his　eyes　
were　probing。　He　examined　my　face　for　a　long　moment。　

〃You're　ready　now；　then？〃　he　asked。　

〃Um。〃　I　gulped。　〃Yes？〃　

He　smiled；　and　inclined　his　head　slowly　until　his　cold　lips　brushed　
against　the　skin　just　under　the　corner　of　my　jaw。　

〃Right　now？〃　he　whispered；　his　breath　blowing　cool　on　my　neck。　I　shivered　
involuntarily。　

〃Yes；〃　I　whispered；　so　my　voice　wouldn't　have　a　chance　to　break。　If　he　
thought　I　was　bluffing；　he　was　going　to　be　disappointed。　I'd　already　made　
this　decision；　and　I　was　sure。　It　didn't　matter　that　my　body　was　rigid　as　
a　plank；　my　hands　balled　into　fists；　my　breathing　erratic…　

He　chuckled　darkly；　and　leaned　away。　His　face　did　look　disappointed。　

〃You　can't　really　believe　that　I　would　give　in　so　easily；〃　he　said　with　a　
sour　edge　to　his　mocking　tone。　

〃A　girl　can　dream。〃　

His　eyebrows　rose。　〃Is　that　what　you　dream　about？　Being　a　monster？〃　

〃Not　exactly；〃　I　said；　frowning　at　his　word　choice。　Monster；　indeed。　
〃Mostly　I　dream　about　being　with　you　forever。〃　

His　expression　changed；　softened　and　saddened　by　the　subtle　ache　in　my　
voice。　

〃Bella。〃　His　fingers　lightly　traced　the　shape　of　my　lips。　〃I　will　stay　
with　you　—　isn't　that　enough？〃　

I　smiled　under　his　fingertips。　〃Enough　for　now。〃　

He　frowned　at　my　tenacity。　No　one　was　going　to　surrender　tonight。　He　
exhaled；　and　the　sound　was　practically　a　growl。　

I　touched　his　face。　〃Look；〃　I　said。　〃I　love　you　more　than　everything　else　
in　the　world　bined。　Isn't　that　enough？〃　

〃Yes；　it　is　enough；〃　he　answered；　smiling。　〃Enough　for　forever。〃　

And　he　leaned　down　to　press　his　cold　lips　once　more　to　my　throat。　

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Acknowledgments　




A　huge　thank　you　to：　

my　parents；　Steve　and　Candy；　

for　a　lifetime　of　love　and　support；S　

for　reading　great　books　to　me　when　I　was　young；　

and　for　still　holding　my　hand　through　the　

things　that　make　me　nervous；　

my　husband；　Pancho；　and　my　sons；　Gabe；　Seth；　and　Eli；　

for　sharing　me　so　often　with　my　imaginary　friends；　

my　friends　at　Writers　House；　

Genevieve　GagneHawes；　for　giving　me　that　first　chance；　

and　my　agent　Jodi　Reamer；　for　turning　the　most　

unlikely　dreams　into　realities；　

my　editor　Megan　Tingley；　for　all　her　help　in　

making　Twilight　better　than　it　started　out；　

my　brothers；　Paul　and　Jacob；　for　their　expert　advice　on　all　

my　automotive　questions；　and　my　online　family；　

the　talented　staff　and　writers　at　fansofrealitytv。；　

particularly　Kimberly　〃Shazzer；〃　and　Collin　〃Mantenna〃　

for　the　encouragement；　advice；　

and　inspiration。