minute cancellations。 So that puts the party attendance list down to sixtyfive。 。 。 。”
“Sixtyfive！” My eyes bulged again。 I didn’t have that many friends。 Did I even know that many people？
“Who canceled？” Edward wondered； ignoring me。
“Renée。”
“What？” I gasped。
“She was going to surprise you for your graduation； but something went wrong。 You’ll have a message
when you get home。”
For a moment； I just let myself enjoy the relief。 Whatever it was that went wrong for my mother； I was
eternally grateful to it。 If she had e to Forks now 。 。 。 I didn’t want to think about it。 My head would
explode。
The message light was flashing when I got home。 My feeling of relief flared again as I listened to my mother
describe Phil’s accident on the ball field — while demonstrating a slide； he’d tangled up with the catcher and
broken his thigh bone； he was entirely dependent on her； and there was no way she could leave him。 My mom
was still apologizing when the message cut off。
“Well； that’s one；” I sighed。
“One what？” Edward asked。
“One person I don’t have to worry about getting killed this week。”
He rolled his eyes。
“Why won’t you and Alice take this seriously？” I demanded。 “This is serious。”
He smiled。 “Confidence。”
“Wonderful；” I grumbled。 I picked up the phone and dialed Renée’s number。 I knew it would be a long
conversation； but I also knew that I wouldn’t have to contribute much。
I just listened； and reassured her every time I could get a word in： I wasn’t disappointed； I wasn’t mad； I
wasn’t hurt。 She should concentrate on helping Phil get better。 I passed on my “get well soon” to Phil； and
promised to call her with every single detail from Forks High’s generic graduation。 Finally； I had to use my
desperate need to study for finals to get off the phone。
Edward’s patience was endless。 He waited politely through the whole conversation； just playing with my
hair and smiling whenever I looked up。 It was probably superficial to notice such things while I had so many
more important things to think about； but his smile still knocked the breath out of me。 He was so beautiful that
it made it hard sometimes to think about anything else； hard to concentrate on Phil’s troubles or Renée’s
apologies or hostile vampire armies。 I was only human。
As soon as I hung up； I stretched onto my tiptoes to kiss him。 He put his hands around my waist and lifted
me onto the kitchen counter； so I wouldn’t have to reach as far。 That worked for me。 I locked my arms
around his neck and melted against his cold chest。
Too soon； as usual； he pulled away。
I felt my face slip into a pout。 He laughed at my expression as he extricated himself from my arms and legs。
He leaned against the counter next to me and put one arm lightly around my shoulders。
“I know you think that I have some kind of perfect； unyielding selfcontrol； but that’s not actually the
case。”
“I wish；” I sighed。
And he sighed； too。
“After school tomorrow；” he said； changing the subject； “I’m going hunting with Carlisle； Esme； and
Rosalie。 Just for a few hours — we’ll stay close。 Alice； Jasper； and Emmett should be able to keep you safe。”
“Ugh；” I grumbled。 Tomorrow was the first day of finals； and it was only a halfday。 I had Calculus and
History — the only two challenges in my lineup — so I’d have almost the whole day without him； and nothing
to do but worry。 “I hate being babysat。”
“It’s temporary；” he promised。
“Jasper will be bored。 Emmett will make fun of me。”
“They’ll be on their best behavior。”
“Right；” I grumbled。
And then it occurred to me that I did have one option besides babysitters。 “You know 。 。 。 I haven’t been
to La Push since the bonfire。”
I watched his face carefully for any change in expression。 His eyes tightened the tiniest bit。
“I’d be safe enough there；” I reminded him。
He thought about it for a few seconds。 “You’re probably right。”
His face was calm； but just a little too smooth。 I almost asked if he’d rather I stayed here； but then I
thought of the ribbing Emmett would no doubt dish out； and I changed the subject。 “Are you thirsty already？” I
asked； reaching up to stroke the light shadow beneath his eye。 His irises were still a deep gold。
“Not really。” He seemed reluctant to answer； and that surprised me。 I waited for an explanation。
“We want to be as strong as possible；” he explained； still reluctant。 “We’ll probably hunt again on the way；
looking for big game。”
“That makes you stronger？”
He searched my face for something； but there was nothing to find but curiosity。
“Yes；” he finally said。 “Human blood makes us the strongest； though only fractionally。 Jasper’s been
thinking about cheating — adverse as he is to the idea； he’s nothing if not practical — but he won’t suggest it。
He knows what Carlisle will say。”
“Would that help？” I asked quietly。
“It doesn’t matter。 We aren’t going to change who we are。”
I frowned。 If something helped even the odds 。 。 。 and then I shuddered； realizing I was willing to have a
stranger die to protect him。 I was horrified at myself； but not entirely able to deny it； either。
He changed the subject again。 “That’s why they’re so strong； of course。 The newborns are full of human
blood — their own blood； reacting to the change。 It lingers in the tissues and strengthens them。 Their bodies
use it up slowly； like Jasper said； the strength starting to wane after about a year。”
“How strong will I be？”
He grinned。 “Stronger than I am。”
“Stronger than Emmett？”
The grin got bigger。 “Yes。 Do me a favor and challenge him to an armwrestling match。 It would be a
good experience for him。”
I laughed。 It sounded so ridiculous。
Then I sighed and hopped down from the counter； because I really couldn’t put it off any longer。 I had to
cram； and cram hard。 Luckily I had Edward’s help； and Edward was an excellent tutor — since he knew
absolutely everything。 I figured my biggest problem would be just focusing on the tests。 If I didn’t watch
myself； I might end up writing my History essay on the vampire wars of the South。
I took a break to call Jacob； and Edward seemed just as fortable as he had when I was on the phone
with Renée。 He played with my hair again。
Though it was the middle of the afternoon； my call woke Jacob up； and he was grouchy at first。 He
cheered right up when I asked if I could visit the next day。 The Quileute school was already out for the
summer； so he told me to e over as early as I could。 I was pleased to have an option besides being
babysat。 There was a tiny bit more dignity in spending the day with Jacob。
Some of that dignity was lost when Edward insisted again on delivering me to the border line like a child
being exchanged by custodial guardians。
“So how do you feel you did on your exams？” Edward asked on the way； making small talk。
“History was easy； but I don’t know about the Calculus。 It seemed like it was making sense； so that
probably means I failed。”
He laughed。 “I’m sure you did fine。 Or； if you’re really worried； I could bribe Mr。 Varner to give you an
A。”
“Er； thanks； but no thanks。”
He laughed again； but suddenly stopped when we turned the last bend and saw the red car waiting。 He
frowned in concentration； and then； as he parked the car； he sighed。
“What’s wrong？” I asked； my hand on the door。
He shook his head。 “Nothing。” His eyes were narrowed as he stared through the windshield toward the
other car。 I’d seen that look before。
“You’re not listening to Jacob； are you？” I accused。
“It’s not easy to ignore someone when he’s shouting。”
“Oh。” I thought about that for a second。 “What’s he shouting？” I whispered。
“I’m absolutely certain he’ll mention it himself；” Edward said in a wry tone。
I would have pressed the issue； but then Jacob honked his horn — two quick impatient honks。
“That’s impolite；” Edward growled。
“That’s Jacob；” I sighed； and I hurried out before Jacob did something to really set Edward’s teeth on
edge。
I waved to Edward before I got into the Rabbit and； from that distance； it looked like he was truly upset
about the honking thing 。 。 。 or whatever Jacob was thinking about。 But my eyes were weak and made
mistakes all the time。
I wanted Edward to e to me。 I wanted to make both of them get out of their cars and shake hands
and be friends — be Edward and Jacob rather than vampire and werewolf。 It was as if I had those two
stubborn mags in my hands again； and I was holding them together； trying to force nature to reverse herself。
。 。 。
I sighed； and climbed in Jacob’s car。
“Hey； Bells。” Jake’s tone was cheerful； but his voice dragged。 I examined his face as he started down the
road； driving a little faster than I did； but slower than Edward； on his way back to La Push。
Jacob looked different； maybe even sick。 His eyelids drooped and his face was drawn。 His shaggy hair
stuck out in random directions； it was almost to his chin in some places。
“Are you all right； Jake？”
“Just tired；” he managed to get out before he was overe by a massive yawn。 When he finished； he
asked； “What do you want to do today？”
I eyed him for a moment。 “Let’s just hang out at your place for now；” I suggested。 He didn’t look like he
was up for much more than that。 “We can ride our bikes later。”
“Sure； sure；” he said； yawning again。
Jacob’s house was vacant； and that felt strange。 I realized I thought of Billy as a nearly permanent fixture
there。
“Where’s your dad？”
“Over at the Clearwaters’。 He’s been hanging out there a lot since Harry died。 Sue gets lonely。”
Jacob sat down on the old couch that was no bigger than a loveseat and squished himself to the side to
make room for me。
“Oh。 That’s nice。 Poor Sue。”
“Yeah 。 。 。 she’s having some trouble。 。 。 。” He hesitated。 “With her kids。”
“Sure； it’s got to be hard on Seth and Leah； losing their dad。 。 。 。”
“Uhhuh；” he agreed； lost in thought。 He picked up the remote and flipped on the TV without seeming to
think about